Barrier,
Tomorrow will be my first Christmas Eve without you and my heart is broken into a million pieces. I am so sad it hurts. I am thankful for my wonderful family and friends but I am so lost without you here. I heard a song the other day by Ryan Adams and one part says "I will come for you when my time here is through". That's how I feel. My time here on earth is not over but when it's time for me to go... I will come for you. I love you more and more each day and I still can't believe I am having to go forward without you by my side. You were my husband and my best friend and I would give anything to have 5 more minutes just to sit with you. Just to look at you. Just to touch you. My love for you is overwhelming and I'm not sure my heart will ever feel whole or happy again. I'm still waiting for this nightmare to end...and it never does. Please give me a sign that your around me. I love you.
