Thank You

After Barrier's funeral, I came back home and tried to slowly "begin again". Didn't work. I became overwhelmed with emotion and memories so I decided to get out of town. Erin and I went and stayed a week with Jamie and Ty in Memphis and I can't say THANK YOU enough to them and all of my wonderful friends. We laughed, cried, ate, laughed, cried, ate...you get the pic. I honestly did not want to come back home. I cried like a baby at the thought of coming "back to reality". I didn't go to Memphis to escape my situation but to "clear my head" or so I thought. Looking back now, I was running away from everything but I'm okay with that. I needed it. Now that I'm back, I want to leave again. Go anywhere. I want to run away from it all and come back to him, our home, and our future but it's not going to happen. So I stay. It's hard but I am capable of doing so because of the very special in my life.

To my friends:
I am so thankful to have all of you in my life. Ya'll have been a guiding light for me throughout the last month. I knew I had good friends but the overwhelming support and love I have received from you has been unreal and very much needed! I can't imagine going through this alone and will forever be grateful to all of you.

To my family:
I could not survive without you!!!

And to those that I do not/have not gotten the pleasure to meet and know:
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your love, time, gifts, support, food, and kind letters.